Life is not dependent upon others efforts or motivation,
It is dependent upon your own efforts and dedication,
Then why to blame your well wishers for your failure or just because others had done better than you?
You are having a different path than others,
The decision made by you in your past are based on that situation in which you had taken that decision or accepted the advice of others.
So no need to blame yourself for your past decision. Instead see that just because of those decisions, you are standing at different pinnacle of your life.
See the positive aspects of life and just move over it.
Discover treasures from your own path, you are certainly gonna grow!!